ewww Gross

i really believe dennis rodman has LOST his damn mind.

does he not realize he will never be a pretty woman if he was never that cute as a man? lol

wtheck is wrong with him? he should just lock himself in a closet FOREVER!

he looks disgusting!!!!!!

Emotional Break

its been a rough week for me

-boy drama

-stupid rat mouth little girl drama

-22nd anniversary of my Granny's death

-dealing with STUPID co-workers i can't stand

-the stress of school

just an emotional wreck this week...ive never thought i would ever get this emotional again but all the things that has been goin on in my life reminded me of my past which caused me to have an emotional break down...but im fine now


i think i want to write a book now...i feel like if i could write this all in a Blog then i could write it in a book...call it the Confessions of Me

Why?

Why is it when I put my HEART and SOUL into something it NEVER works, for example relationships. I know that people have good and bad relationships but I never seem to get/have a good relationships only the bad ones. and why is it that I could help my friends and give them on what they should do in a relationship but I keep fucking keep one...wtf! Its like when I get into a relationship I always put my best fot forward, I do basically everything a girlfriend is supposed to do with her boyfriend but it seems not to work that way. I just want to know what I do wrong? Because before I get into a relationship or about to develop one I ask the guy what does he like in a girl and what is a perfect girlfriend he would want and try my hardest to abid by what he looks for in a girl but doesn't work. Its like guys ALWAYS want the girl they say "they wouldn't" date but still whines up dating that person. I try my hardest to be the best girlfriend: I'm faithful, patient, loving, respectful, cute, nice, loyal, trustworthy, and the list goes on but I'm assuming that guys aren't into that. So as of right now I'm just like F the whole dating scene right now I'm focusing on ME, SCHOOL, and MONEY!



Confessions of ME

Confessions Part 2

Have you ever wanted to express yourself to the world or maybe just a close friend but just couldn't because you are afriad of what they will say or how they may judge you? That's how I feel 60% of the time. And its sucks. I know as bestfriends we are not supposed to with hold secrets from eachother but sometimes these secrets are just too deep, hard to explain, embarassing, and sometimes just don't have the guts to tell. I love all my friends, all the people I've encountered over the past few years, everyone that's in my life or has ever been in my life and truly without them I wouldn't be the person I am today. My life has been very hard, I've made some bad decisions, I've through stuff no one could EVER imagine, but I try to put that aside and try not to let it show. But sometimes its hard. I want to let it out to the world but I can't. And I've realized the more and more I get older I think about the things I've been through and decisions I made, and sometimes I just want to cry. But in the back of my head I realized I'm not that bad of a person that I thought I would be.



Confessions of Me

a place that relaxes me and releases all my stress

i love the beach! i will be there a lot this summer!

My letter to you

Dear ,


I've went through so much shit growing up and being able to trust guys PERIOD. Shit happened in my life that only one of my bestfriends know about (1 out of 8 of my bestfriends). But I don't blame you for anything...we live and we learn and I just want to learn where I went wrong!I know that you are going through a lot right now. I understand your young and everyone has these imoments in life. I Do understand how it is to be hurt. I understand how it is to feel not wanted. I know how it feels to lose a bestfriend. I know it is to be angry, upset, mad, and pissed off to the point where you just don't give a FUCK. I KNOW and UNDERSTAND! But you saying fuck everything and everyone is not worth it. Honestly yea your mom may have kicked you out, but yet she is still there to support you. Yes you and your dad don't get along to well and yall fight everyday, but at least he was man enough to take you in. My dad has has never been there for me! He hurt me as a child mentally and physically! I haven't heard from him in years. He has NEVER done anything to help me nor my brother or sister. At one point of my life I was homeless for about 2 months moving from house to house. I will HATE my father for NEVER being there, doing what he did to me, and not being a father! Your parents tell you things so you won't make the same mistakes they made, and yes you might not make them but they are not just telling you to get on your nerves they are telling you so you can be a BETTER person than what they are, that's their job as parents to protect you and do what's best for you. And yet you may not understand this now but later will understand. I mean look on the brighter side at least you have both parents in your life when I only have my mom to be the mother and the father.



The Confessions of ME

**CRYING**

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Dazed and Confused!